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They say you life is based on your beliefs.

How is that?

Your beliefs are like wearing a certain color glasses, and the world shows up consistently with those glasses.

For example, if you think that women are exploited, taken advantage of, snubbed, held back, abused, not allowed to grow… then the whole world will prove your right. Even when something happens that doesn’t fit with your beliefs, you’ll say “exceptions strengthen the rule”.

Of course the problem with beliefs is that they do not feel like a belief, they feel like the truth.

I, for one, believed and keep on believing, in spite of all the transformational programs I have done for the past 23 years, that my mother hated me, she wished me dead. In spite of some rare instances that the opposite was evident, I keep on believing that.

“Why is that?” you say, “Obviously it doesn’t do you any good to believe that your mother didn’t love you… after all, if you parents didn’t love you, then you are no good, and you’ll live your life consistently with that.”

You are so right, I do live my life consistently with that. So, why on earth, I would insist on piling up evidence after evidence to prove to you that I am right, that I have been right, and I’ll die right and poor and unhappy, and miserable… but I’ll be right.

Excellent question. For one, I have never set out to prove myself wrong. Maybe that is what I should do… I should start rewriting my personal history showing all the details and happenings, and meals and birthday cakes, and gifts, and vacations, and pretty dresses, and Mom showing up at the doctor’s when she found out I got hurt, and she coming to America to visit me, and so on, and so on.

I am sobbing as I am writing this. You see, at this moment, all those little instances are still against the “backdrop” of “she didn’t love me”.

If I continue to focus on this new evidence finding mission, maybe I can change the “backdrop” and then I will be able to become loved, rich, and happy.

Hmm… this is not where I wanted to go with this post… G-d works in mysterious ways. I guess this is what I had to write about… this is what’s up… Thank You G-d for guiding me.